Every day a new goodbye, or an opportunity for a goodbye missed. Spirits flagging, doubts rising. Because of technology, I can see what some of my soon-to-be classmates look like. Some have even “friended” me on Facebook; when I get the notification I think, “Oh, just leave me alone.” And then I get mad at myself. Why am I not reveling in this experience the way these younguns seem to? On an SIT-related forum, one […]
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Antique Mirrors, Nepali Kayers & Dead Dogs
The old mirror that my father left me will be at auction on August 23. I was hoping it was worth $10,000 or something (well, it happens on TV, right?) but if I get $1,000 I’ll be lucky. I talked to the coordinator of the organization I’ve been volunteering for (Refugee Transitions). She’s an inspiring and accomplished young woman who is working on her MFA in creative writing. Now I want to do that, too. […]
Read moreAtmospheric & Emotional Turmoil
After spending 48 hours in Vermont thunderstorms, I’ve recognized yet another corny metaphor for my emotional condition. As I lay curled into a tight ball around my pillow in my dismal motel room, wracked by full-blown terror (of my plans, of my brain), I noticed the similarities to the weather as its ferocity mounted, abated, and blasted in again. The weather has the advantage of not feeling all that stuff; I have the advantage of […]
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I was awoken by an early morning phone call. Hoping it was from SIT, I got out of bed and retrieved the message. It wasn’t from SIT. It was from my auto loan people saying my car is no longer insured. It would have been a good time to go back to bed. But as I was sitting in front of the computer thinking, “I am paralyzed” (on account of having no clue where I’ll […]
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